Come L-rd, Come

This is Gabriel.

He is an amazing man of G-d, and a really dear friend of mine. He used to live here in KC and moved home to be near his family. More specifically his Dad (Ed Kellmer) who has a disease that mostly attacks his gut. He has battled cancer off an on and recently has become more accutely ill. He is now in pain almost all the time, not responding well to chemo or radiation, and is in great need of a miracle.

This is Ed and Lynn.

Gabe came down this weekend to attend a wedding and for some much needed time away. We were able to pray for him and his Dad and my heart became even more burdened for them. The Kellmer's are a G-d fearing family and believe that a miracle is possible. 

Please partner with me to pray for healing for Ed and strength for all the Kellmer fam.

Giver, giver, giver

I've recently had a revelation about myself. This is not uncommon but I found this one particularly interesting. I feel like I'm a fairly self aware person and when I have a revelation about myself that seems large it strikes me off guard.

So I come from a community that emphasizes the redemptive gifts (Arthur Burke). I love this largely because the focus is on your birthright. If we know our birthright, as well as the attacks against it we can call each other into the fullness of what the L-rd has made us to be. As well as help each other fight the biggest battles set against us. This being said I feel my redemptive gift is that of a giver.

There is a lot involved in all of the giftings, but yes, it is what is sounds...I like to give. I like to give as much as I can whenever I can. Creative gifts, money gifts, food gifts, time gifts, thoughtful gifts, gifts that will bless the person I'm giving them to, and gifts that bless me to give them.

So I've realized that the 5 love languages (Dr. Gary Chapman) also come into play when analyzing my gift. I have 2 other friends that also claim this giver status. First there's Cassie...she's real good at giving gifts. She will paint your wall, build a kitchen for your daughter, design your business card, or make you a pair of earrings. She's creative, intelligent and thoughtful, she likes to give and receive gifts. Then there's Justin....he's amazing at acts of service. He's always there if you need him, he'll cut your grass, give you a ride, or help you move. He loves it when people do him a favor or help him out, he likes to give and receive acts of service.

Then there's me. If you know me you're probably aware that touch is my number one love language. I've most likely hugged you, touched your arm or your shoulder, played with your hair (if you're a girl) etc. So I thought I like to give and receive touch.

I don't like it when people are hurting. I love it when people are able to step out of their comfort zone and do something challenging. And if you've done something awesome that WAY deserves to be noticed. All of the above win words of affirmation from Jess (and probably a hug as well).

This also means if my encouragement is shot down, it hurts. I feel rejected, like my gift of me wasn't good enough. Wow...I didn't even know that was possible. I didn't know I was giving me, I guess. It makes me realize the power of the tongue and that when I use it, it's for the person I'm speaking to, and for myself as well.

I like to give, I also love people, if I can give myself to people that would be the ultimate gift. I do that through words of encouragement. I don't usually have eloquent words like my friends Jack or Bill. And I'm not amazing at writing or expression like my friends Leah or Susan. But if you're going though a hard time, number one you can almost always count on me to pray for you and give you a hug or a pat on the back, but I will also do my best to give you words of affirmation.

Well, that's all...I thought it was interesting, maybe you did too. If not, I promise, my next post will be way less narcissistic.

Bye Bye Blues

On fall break my last year of nursing school I went to Taiwan to seek the L-rd, be with friends and do some serious healing and intense prayer times. It was an amazing and life changing trip. One of the things the L-rd spoke to me on that trip was that I would be a pediatric nurse. It made me feel so alive, I had peace in my spirit about what I was supposed to do. I tried, hard, to work with children from the start, but the doors just weren't opening.
 

The L-rd was in control. After Zeke passed away in the exact unit I wanted to work on, at Children's Mercy Hospital, I realized the L-rd's sovereignty and how his timing is perfect. Then Wyatt left. My heart ached and I realized I have to be with those kids.

It took me awhile but I finally applied again. About 2 weeks later I got an email to set up an interview. I cried. I couldn't believe the L-rd would even get me that far. Well here we are almost a month and a half after I the email and starting November 1st I will be employed as an RN in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit (PICU) at Children's Mercy Hospital.

I'm so excited! I can't really think about anything else. Everyday the L-rd shows me how this is His will, not mine. It's all in His perfect timing. He waited until all the pieces were in order and I was ready to accept this position. I am honored, thankful and overwhelmed, I have so much to learn! 

I know it'll be hard, real hard at times, but those kids are going to be sick whether I'm there or not. I want to be there to give them love (when they may not receive that anywhere else.) I want to share the love of Jesus with them and with their families when they are broken and crying out for something more. I can't wait. 

I've never been more excited about anything...ever!  I get to work in a place that is so prestigious and so influential. I can't believe He picked me! Thank you L-rd!

As if the job wasn't special enough I get to wear fun scrubs to work...whatever kind I want. So no more blue day in and day out. Hello bright and cheery!

People

My latest revelation is that I love people. I love my friends and I love my family. But not only that, I just LOVE people. I love getting to know people. I love how different people are and how they can respond and think so diversely from each other. I love enjoying people.

For example I'm a sports fan by default. I like sports, I think they're fun, I don't really know much about any sport in particular but it's always kind of enjoyable to watch or play a game. Other than the jayhawks I don't really have a favorite team. However, if someone I love has a favorite team you will find me cheering right along side them.

I love road trips and holidays even events that aren't that exciting...all because I get to be with people.

So we have a new computer program at work. We've had computer charting ever since I've worked here but, starting last Saturday everything is now on the computer. It's kind of a big deal, basically the way we do everything has changed. So I'm a "super user" for this little project, it's called Q6, (quality to the 6th power). Don't get excited, it's not as glorious as it sounds. Basically all it means is that I go around the hospital and answer questions about the new program. I help them know when to right click and when to use the drop down box, fabulous things like that.

So I kind of love it. Crazy I know. I don't love computers, really I'm not even that great at them, so why do I find it so fun?

Well...

#1 I get to meet new people, lots and lots of new people.

#2 I love teaching. I get to help my fellow nurses know the absolute best way to use this system. I show them the smallest thing that makes their life a tad easier and they love it. I love that.

#3 I love efficiency. If they show me it's not working to their best interest I get to take the feedback to people above me and try and get it working better. That's exciting to me.

So I'm having a great time learning how to love people better, I still have a long way to go but it's a fun adventure. And I love you...to all the people in my life, you make me better!